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Sunday, March 29, 2015

The Dragon Morpher

The Dragon Morpher

The day had started off simple enough. I was collecting firewood with Father to bring back to the cave and I was riding on his back as he soared through the air towards the cave that we call home.
My Father, Mother, and I were all Dragon morphers.

Being Dragon morphers meant that we were able to shapeshift back and forth between human and dragon form. Due to the sudden death of a different Dragon morpher, my family made sure to keep a low profile. In order to keep suspicions low in case I accidentally morphed during the day in the village, my Father used his knowledge in restriction charms to make necklaces for me that would resist my morphing magic. All my restriction charms were in either the form of necklaces or bracelets or anklets, the anklets because I didn’t wear sandals. The years of growing up outside had toughened my feet. My Father spent countless nights with me, teaching me what herbs to use in case I became lost I the forest.
Mother taught me how to sew so that I could make myself clothes in the forest. She also taught me what to do in case I was flying in midair and suddenly I morph back human. A shoulder roll is the technique to use in case of mid-air crisis. Of course, another resolve is looking for a tree and angling your body so that you land in the tree instead of the ground but the shoulder roll seemed easier.
It wasn’t.
Five dislocated shoulders later, I finally succeeded the stupid technique. That night we had charred deer and slightly burned blueberry mini-cakes. Regardless of the fact that everything was a little burnt, the dinner was great.
The wind rustled my brown hair and Father dipped and swirled a little bit. I love it when he does this. I literally am shaking at the effort of not yelling with joy. Father`s sides heave and that tells me that he’s laughing. We land in front of the cave I call home. The cave has three rooms. My room has a little sleeping mat set out with my toy Pegasus and a little bookshelf along with a rug set out. The room next to mine was the dining room, which had a table and three chairs. A rug covered the entire floor and the dining room had little paintings of birds flying through the air. I`ve never seen my parents` bedroom.
Mother welcomes us back with a smile because she is in human form and beckons us inside. I leapt off father`s back and run inside, carrying the firewood. I morph my wings, a skill which took a loooong time to perfect. My wins are the color of scarlet with purple. At dinner we eat fresh pineapple and melon, wild boar, and chicken.
We all give a word of thanks to Esmerelldaa, the first female sorcerer who gave the dragons morphing magic. She is the one who gave my kind this wondrous power. My name Elria in old dragon tongue means sunset and is also meant to be a sort-of copy of Esmerelldaa`s name.



We all ate our dinner in a content silence when father broke the silence. “Elria, I need you to take the cart full of this week`s catch to the butcher and trade the rest of the extras to people who will give you more clothes.” I nodded and forked a hunk of boar meat into my mouth. 

After dinner I headed to my room and slipped on the baggy dress that served as my nightclothes. Father and mother came in and kissed me night and as they left my room I pulled my Pegasus toy towards me and fell into a deep, dreamless sleep.
I woke up the next morning writhing in agony. A deep, pounding pain in my head caused me to flinch when I woke and I realized that I had a major headache. I walked out of my sleeping chamber and ate my breakfast, which consisted of blueberries and strawberries with a little bit of honey to help sooth my aching head. Mother and father were still asleep so I crept back into my room and pulled on a faded blue sundress and slipped on my seashell necklace charm. I hopped to the entrance ad leapt outside. I morphed both of my hands into dragon claws and grabbed each side of the cart. We had no horses so I carried around the cart.  Both of the pegs that allowed me to grip the cart were covered in shark skin so that I could toughen my hands and so that I had more traction on the pegs. Turning the cart towards the road, I started off and the quit hum of the forest silence and the occasional swish of the wind through the trees was a pleasant sound. The rosy peak of dawn was only just showing when the peace of nature was broken by a horse`s whinny. I quickly morphed every part of my hands back to human except for the palms and prayed to Esmerelldaa that this person not notice my palms.
I turned my head and saw a youth about my age riding on horseback. The guy had sandy hair and blue eyes along with a smile that would no doubt melt the hearts of most of the girls in the village. I turned back around and suddenly had a vision of a different man in the same armor the boy was wearing but this man wore a malicious smile and carried a spear that was slicked with blue blood. It took me a moment to realize that the blood on this man`s spear was dragon`s blood and the thought of this man being a dragon slayer chilled me to my core. I shivered despite the warm temperature.  
The youth caught up with me despite my best efforts to outpace his horse, which wasn’t very easy considering that I was carrying a cart full of dead game.
“Hello,” greeted the person with a smile. I stared at him with a blank expression. It probably looked like I was bored but in my head, well, my mind me was on her knees and was hoping that this annoyance would go away. “My name is Daryl and I`m looking for a Sheolan Town around here. Do you know where it is?” My mind me was devastated that he would probably be accompanying me to town and sat on her knees, resembling a very mad pixie. I offered a small smile and replied: “Yes, I know where that is. It`s where I`m heading. If you like, you can accompany me.” He slapped me across the face and I tried as best I could to drop the cart slowly as possible as I tumbled to the ground. “When addressing a dragon killer, one does not end a sentence without ‘sir’.” He said coolly as he slid of his horse and offered a hand. Tears stung my eyes from the slap and I faced him with a look so fierce that he backed off. I stood up, brushed off my dress, picked up the cart, and surged forward. “Wait! You were going to escort me to Sheolan Town!” called Daryl. I whirled around to face him, even though he was a few yards behind me. “Find it yourself!” I spat and stalked off, taking the poor cart with me.
When I reached the town, the sun was fully in the sky and the girls were gossiping as the children played in the streets. A few of the shopkeepers called out greetings to me and I smiled in reply. I was walking towards the butcher district when a thought finally occurred to me. What was a dragon killer doing heading to Sheolan Town? I heard collective sighs from the gaggle of girls behind me and turned to see what it was they were looking at. It was the annoying Daryl, A.K.A, the ‘dragon slayer’. I growled and continued my journey towards the butcher’s district but not until Daryl saw me. I cursed softly as I heard him jump off his horse and run to me. “Hello again, maiden,” said Daryl, matching my pace. “What is your name? I didn’t ask earlier.” I looked pointedly ahead but answered nonetheless. “Elria.” Daryl ran in front of me and I had to stop quickly so that I wouldn’t hit him. “Are you mad?!” I hissed at him. “I could’ve run you over!” He smiled and reached out a hand to touch my cheek. The cheek which still stung from the slap. I slapped his hand away and moved around him to, once again, the butcher`s district. But before I left him alone completely, I had to get an answer. “Why are you here, anyway?” I called. “There be a report from a shepherd that there are a family of dragons living here.” I thought that my blood literally froze upon hearing this. But I needed to know another thing. “Will more of you be coming here?” I asked in a shaky voice.
“Oh yes. Half of the army. I was just sent as a scout to see where the town is.”
Daryl turned to face me, which caused many protests from the ladies he was flirting with. “Why are you so curious anyway?” he asked. “Do you know where these beasts are?” I shook my head “No,” I said purposely not saying ‘sir’. I turned a corner before he could realize this.  
 After collecting the coins and clothes from selling the dead game I headed home. To save time, I morphed full dragon form and dodged trees like a pro. I left the cart hidden behind some bushes.  I looked up and saw the smoke that showed me where home was. I grinned and ran full speed towards the smoke. I skidded to a halt and realized with horror that I wasn’t home. In fact, I had stumbled into an area far, far worse.
 I had arrived into a camp area and every one of those soldiers had swords or spears. To make it worse, they were all staring at me.
A squeak of alarm slipped out as I charged backwards and succeeded in ramming my body into a tree. The entire area erupted in a collection of yelling and drawing weapons. Suddenly, every man in that clearing was charging towards me in the intent of killing me. I yelped openly this time, the noise reverberating for miles. I wheeled around and headed back towards the other smoke line. I ran faster than all of the men and glided through the air as I leapt away. By the time I had arrived at home I had left the men lost in the forest. I flung open the door as I ran to warn mother and father of the threat. “Mother! Father! Get ready for battle!” I yelled as I ran into their sleeping chamber. My mother opened one eye and was about to scold me until she saw the fear in my eyes. Mother quickly shook awake father and told him what was happening. He jumped out of bed and immediately morphed full dragon. Mother did the same. I quickly jumped onto mother`s back and we all thundered outside. Mother`s green and gold scales gleamed in the sunlight, as did father`s deep blue and red scales. My own scales were purple and scarlet. After hopping off mother`s back I stood in between her and father.
I looked at my father. A fierce expression had taken over his face. The same with Mother.
The yelling was the first sign that the soldiers had come. My necklace clattered against my scales and scared me. 
When the first soldier was in sight Mother plucked me off the ground and used an ancient dragon incantation to force me to turn back human. It felt horrid being forced to morph back. Mother looked into my eyes. “Elria, go into the house and take that ancient book off the pedestal and place it up here, along with your sleeping mat and blanket.” Whispered my mother fiercely. I opened my mouth to protest but she shushed me with a claw. Mother tucked a strand of hair behind my head and hugged me tightly. She then let go and whispered something to me: I love you. My eyes teared up as father roared the same thing. Mother tipped backwards, allowing the wind to let her drift down. I shimmied down the hole in our roof where the sun came in and grabbed the book and stuffed it into my bag, along with some food, my sleeping mat, blanket, and my waterskin. I clawed my way back up and found Daryl standing there. 
I allowed a small eep and started back down the hole when he grabbed my hand and pulled me up. “Come on!” he yelled over the chaos. “We have to leave while they kill the monsters!” My face paled at the thought of my parents being killed and then I shook off the thought. I peeked over the edge just as a stray arrow caught my father right in the heart. He unleashed a deafening scream and fell to the ground with a great thump.
“Noooooooooo!!!” I screamed. Father looked at me, managed a weak smile and mouthed I love you. Mother saw my father fall and gave a deep, raw cry of anguish and sadness. She looked at my face and mouthed the same thing my father had moments before his demise. Daryl was yelling with excitement and dragged me down the roof. Mother looked at me with those deep blue eyes and I knew what she was going to do. I shook my head as hard as I could but she mouthed it once more: I love you, and flew off, the soldiers and their shouts following. Daryl was dragging me farther away from my father’s body and I thrashed and fought back. “Let go of me! Get away from me!” I screeched as he continued dragging me backwards. I kicked his shin hard and he slackened his grip to nurse his leg. Tears were streaming down my face as I flung myself on my father`s body. A second cry choked through the air and I knew instinctively that mother was dead.  Tears were running down my cheeks even more and I howled into the air a mourning cry. When I had finally calmed down enough, I took one of Father`s beautiful scales and placed it in my tunic pocket. I delivered Father a farewell kiss on his sulfur smelling snout and faced Daryl. The young dragon knight grabbed me by my arm and hauled me off to go and see the ‘dead beast’ as Daryl says.  
We reached Mother`s body in an estimation of 10 minutes and by the time we arrived, I had already started crying again. One of Mother`s beautiful green wings was flopped over at an unnatural angle and a trickle of blood trailed from her mouth as she stared silently at nothing. Another strangled cry forced itself out of me and I thrust my arms outwards, forcing me out of Daryl`s grip.
I cradled Mother`s head on my lap and did the same mourning cry that I did with Father. I placed a kiss on her scaled head and took a scale from her and put it in my pocket as well. Strong arms hauled me up and something bashed me in the back of the head. The world faded in and out until finally, everything went black.



When I woke I found myself in a lavishly decorated room. There was a painting of the same man I had seen in my strange vision. And I was under the sheets of a soft bed. I threw off the covers and started running towards the painting when a wave of nausea struck me.
The world spun as I fumbled for something to grab hold on. I finally found a chair edge and steadied myself. The world swam in front of my eyes until gradually my sight finally returned to normal. I made myself aware of my surroundings and heard music coming from somewhere in the room.
Then I remembered.
I remembered being hauled off to this room and being left here. Mother and Father were now dead, our home almost undoubtedly destroyed. 
And I was undoubtedly in the home of the ones who killed my parents. I finally found the place where the music was coming from and turned a notch to turn it off. My mouth moved but no words came out.
Then the dam holding back my rage broke.
I whirled to the bed where I was laying earlier and tore at the sheets until they were ripped strips of silk. I then attacked one of the bedposts and clawed at it like I was a cat. I then kicked the stupid thing several times, enough to almost make it break completely and walked over to the vanity table.
After a second of staring at my reflection, I grabbed one of the table legs and heaved it across the room in my mad rampage. It was only then I realized that this probably wasn’t the best idea because I might accidentally morph while in this state. After considering this, I picked up a china vase, examined it, and then threw it against the door as hard as I could.
As I walked over to the painting I had seen, I tried to push al thoughts about Mother and Father away for the moment to stop myself from going mad with sorrow and grief. I reached the painting and looked at the caption underneath it.
“’Sir Aso Guordi, The great dragon slayer’.” I read aloud. “Heh. Hardly great that he’s a dragon slayer.”
I walked back to the bed ad promptly demolished it with a smile. I placed my hands on my hips and stuck my tongue out at the painting, then threw a perfume bottle at it. It broke on contact with the painting, filling the room with a sweet fragrance. I took one sniff of the air and almost died it smelled so bad. I faked gasping for air as I walked on over to the chair and sat down in it.
I sighed and punched the wall and managed to knock one block out of place.
After this I walked over to a bookshelf (which I didn’t know was there) and randomly picked a book off the shelf. “Ancient history of Eryia,” I sad aloud. I thumbed through the book and found that it was boring. The results were also the same on the next book and the next and the next etc.
On the last book I sighed with annoyance and threw it against the wall.
“Is there anything good to read in here?!”
I heard the soft tsk-tsk-tsk sound of disapproval as someone entered the room.
It was the man from the painting, the dragon killer.
I could feel the blood fall from my face and as soon as he opened his mouth to say something, I whisked myself out of that room and away from that man. As I ran I morphed my legs and ran faster as I tried to escape the place that that man dwelled in. This must have been a very poorly guarded castle because I whisked myself out of there before they could even sound the alarm.
AS I reached the forest I started to look for trees that I could stay in. Nope, too skinny. Definitely no, much too old and rotten. The rage that had been burning brightly a few minutes ago was now replaced with the jittery feeling of escape.
Finally I found a tree not too far from the castle area and that was strong and healthy enough to support my weight. I positioned myself for ambush from the trees because I wanted to send a message to the castle. MY message was that you shouldn’t annihilate a family just because you think it’s dangerous. My other message was that I wasn’t afraid to kill. My last message was practically a declaration of war.   
I was going to hold Daryl hostage the first chance I was given.
The chatter of a night patrol filled the air around my tree. Suddenly I was nervous. How would I take out so many men? How can I know if I can knock someone out if I haven’t even caught a squirrel? The answer was suddenly very clear: Father and Mother would do that same thing for me.
I gritted my teeth and gave the mother of all roars. I morphed my wings and morphed my legs and hands. As I dropped from the tree, I knocked out one man with a blow to the back of the head and another by doing the same. Soon the area around me had four men unconscious on the ground and the only one still standing was Daryl, not because he was an amazing fighter but because I needed him to see what I was capable of. He had his sword drawn and he was shaking as well.
I smiled and batted the sword from his grip like it was a ball of yarn. I quickly knocked him out with a swift hit to the back of his head and found a rope on his person. Stupid guy, I thought to myself with a smirk.
Now all I needed was someone to tell Sir Aso Gourdi about Daryl. . .


Friday, March 6, 2015

Boo

I stood there at the worn door, prepping myself for battle. 

I could faintly hear a television through the thin apartment walls, and could just make out my mother's voice asking John to get something for her.  

John was my mother's eighth husband. Not my stepfather, just my mother's husband. I'd had so many stepfathers as a child I decided when I turned 18 and left home that I would never have another.  Any husbands after that would have nothing to do with me.  As a child our bizarre lifestyle had made me feel special.  I didn't excel in sports or music or academics, and I usually had no idea what was happening in politics or current events - those things were rarely discussed at our house. But I was the sole possessor of weird. I was the girl with the truly dysfunctional home in the days when dysfunctional wasn't the norm.  I didn't know then that a child will cling to anything to feel special.  Now I did.  Now I had a say. John was just my mother's husband. 

A soft questioning meow brought me back to the present, and I looked down at white whiskers poking through the carrier at my feet.  "Now?" I whisper.  "Now, you have to meow like a cat? After your perfectly quiet little interview and our perfectly quiet ride over here?"

My mother was a cat-person. Not a cat-lady, though I think if she'd had the means and space she would have hoarded cats for pleasure at the cost of reason. But she was a cat person, fully appreciating all things cat. She loved their purr, their fur, their independence and sass, their silky grace, soft paws and sharp brains, and always attributed to them her own dark, dry humor.  She used to say things like, "Cats were once worshiped as gods. (Add a perfectly-timed pause). Cats have not forgotten this."

But my mother had not owned a cat in over 20 years. Not since marrying this husband, this one who had lasted longer than all the others, though I could not understand why. This husband had said with resounding conviction for many years, "No cat!"  And my mother, rather than running off to look for Number Nine, had stayed to quarrel and fight and do the rest of her life with Number Eight.  She had thus remained cat-less. 

I knelt down and looked with trepidation at my new friend. She was absolutely beautiful. A long-haired, black and shockingly glossy Himalayan, she was the chic, celeb wanna-be of cats everywhere.  She reminded me of a roommate I once had who always woke up gorgeous. Her mere existence made it hard on all the tabbies of the world. 

"She has such a gentle personality," the nice lady had said. "She would be so perfect for an elderly couple," she had promised. 

She had been perfect for them, too, the lady explained.  Until their baby grew into a cat-chasing toddler, and two new dogs had viewed her as a chew toy.  Born on Halloween, almost completely black, they had named her Boo.  Now she was three and sitting in a strange carrier in a strange hallway with a strange new lady looking at her. 

I looked into her stunning green eyes, and wondered if I had been cat-hypnotized into believing this was a good idea. 

No. No, I understood boundaries. And yes, yes, I had stayed inside all boundaries, both reasonable and ridiculous, for the past 20 years. Because this was their marriage, her husband, their life, not mine. 

But it was easy to see that my mother's health was failing. She was 78 now, and that meant more trips to doctors with long hours in waiting rooms, more medicines, more anger, less mobility, less humor, more depression, more anger.  And more anger. What I didn't run from screaming, I wanted to help fix.  A cat wouldn't fix anything, I knew, but no cat-person should have to live, and eventually die, utterly cat-less.  

And now the moment of dread was upon me. The television program inside the apartment had just started a new game show while I gathered my nerve. 

"Oh, Boo," I sighed. "What have I gotten you into?  What have I gotten myself into?"

And I heard my mother's voice in my head answering for Boo. "Lady, is my new room ready?  They serve tuna, right?  I don't do the dry stuff.  So, where's the staff?"  

My mom was gonna love this cat.  But what to do about that no-cat husband of hers? 

I stood and again began to prep my mind for battle.

I had to prep my heart so many times for these visits.  "Go low," I would say to my heart, "Go so very low.  Remember, you’re only here to serve and to give. Don't let yourself expect anything - not affirmation, not appreciation, not connection, not love. You will only be hurt and disappointed. Again. Just give, just serve, just stay humble, just go low."

Now I felt the need to prep my mind for battle. This was a new a new stance, going to battle for my mother. I knew better than to do battle with her as I had never won. But now, of all things, I'm battling for a cat. For this insanely beautiful creature that I knew would bring her joy. 

I prep.  

I breathe.

I wait. 

I knock.  

John calls out in his usual high-strung manner.  

"Yes!!  I'm coming!!!"

And then lower, more to himself, "I'm coming, I'm coming."

I didn't like this man, this eight man my mother chose so much like the other seven, a former alcoholic, former chain smoker, with low self-esteem and easily manipulable.  My mother was the poster child for the manipulative relationships that prevailed in the 40's when she was still in her drop-dead gorgeous twenties. Pretend you are incompetent so your man feels smart.  Pretend you are weak so he feels strong. What amazed me was that it was still working in the 21st century, and for a woman in her seventies. And that there actually were men around who did not catch on, could not see through it.  Or, a new thought I began to entertain 10 years into this union, maybe they did.  Maybe they guessed her weaknesses were an act, but ignored them because they liked the feeling of pseudo strength and pseudo smarts. 

I thought of my own sons, raised by their own dysfunctional mother who was still, even after they were grown and gone, trying to fix the broken parts inside herself. I breathed a prayer of gratitude that they were not intimidated by strong, capable women. In fact, they cherished them. Then they married them. And then became even better men because of them. And yet none of them were manipulated and each knew how to lead. None were manipulated by their wives. They each, in turn, had been manipulated by their mother, because it was the only parenting class she ever attended as a child, and lessons thrust upon one in life tend to stick longer than all the workshops one signs up for later.

And my daughter? I'd spent her lifetime wondering how she could be mine. Healthily independent, terrifyingly adventurous, and so discriminating in her dating that she eventually found someone, in her words, like her brothers. 

If being strong was the only thing I admired in my children, it would have been enough. But I still wanted to grow up to be like them.

I could hear John manipulating the two locks on the door.  Always two locks.  Always fearful of the world.  He is telling me the whole time it's almost open. John is easily anxious, easily offended, always worried, often critical. His hyper-anxiety sets off an auto-trigger in me of extreme calm and assurance, a counter balance to downplay to his continual storm.  I realize now that I learned this downplay from my children, who used it in turn to counteract my meltdowns. If he lived long enough, I believe John would have tempted me to downplay the end times even as they descended on us. It's never fun seeing your weaknesses in people you don't like. It's probably why we spend so much time looking away from them. 

Now I would be creating his storm. 

The knob turned and the next sound I heard was, "Meeeeeeoooooow?!"

Not the soft inquisitive mew of a moment before, but a shrill cat-like meow more like, "Lady, if you don't show me hot food, cold milk and a litter box neeeeeoooowwwww, I'm going to find my way out of this prison and eat your face.  Your time has expired."

John never even looked up. He didn't have a chance. His face went from doorknob to hall, and without even a hello, he said, "What's that?!"

Prep was now over. The battle had begun. 

I picked up Boo's carrier, and smiled toward John (in case he ever took his eyes off the carrier).  I looked at him in a fun way that implied I brought cats to his place every morning, and said, "Oh, this?  This is Boo."

"Boo!?" John repeated as though he was waiting for me to tell him what a Boo was. It was a totally sane response, but I was so used to un-sane conversations in this relationship that I wasn't about to give him credit for switching sides. 

"Yes, Boo.  She's a cat."

I lifted the carrier eye-level and man and cat exchanged glances.  Neither uttered a sound.  Lowering it I broke the silence as naturally as possible. 

"Is Mom here?" 

It was a rhetorical question. I knew she was there. She didn't leave the apartment without him. She barely left it with him. John did all the grocery shopping, all the bill-paying, all the cooking, all the pill-counting, and all the cleaning, including now cleaning up after my mother.  The less she was capable of, the less she pretended to be capable of, the more he did. Unless she was in the hospital or rehab, my mother was always there. 

John eventually moved aside to let me by, and I forced myself to use a casual, yet respectful step. I could not describe what those 11 steps from door to recliner looked like, but the battle was now on, and I knew I had to carry myself carefully.

My mother was seated in the largest, softest of the two worn chairs in the tiny studio. I had actually bought both recliners five years before, and the two chairs before them. But they looked ragged and ready for replacement again from full-time use. 

I watched my mother's eyes catch mine as I entered, and immediately dart down my arm to the carrier. But my other eyes, the ones that my children said I had in the back of my head, those eyes were on John. I could feel him watching me. I could see his now reddening face just off to my left. I knew he was prepping for battle. 

I put the carrier down next to my mother, and knelt front of her. She would not look at me. She knew exactly what a cat carrier looked like and she only had eyes for it. Opening its door, I lifted out the softest, most dreamy blob of love in the form of cat that was ever created. Boo, as if on queue, immediately purred and curled into a massive ball on her lap. 

I have no medical training and don't ever wish to. Most things medical repulse me. I am a writer, a word sculptor, and the reality of cells and organs and blood and mucous totally ruin a story. This outlook is unlike my daughter's, who for reasons I will never relate to, enjoyed holding peoples' guts together so much as an emergency room nurse that she went on to stitching them back together as a PA. 

But at that moment, watching fibers in my mother's being soften, hearing her soft coos to Boo, I would swear on a stack of medical journals that I had witnessed someone's blood pressure come immediately down. Her face instantly brightened and softened, and her entire being was instantly happy. She was absolutely lost in cat. 

I, however, was still absolutely present with John. He had been talking almost non-stop since I entered. 

"A cat!?  I don't like cats."

"Did you ever have one?" I asked, still kneeling, not daring to look at him. 

"No!  We never had a cat when I was growing up."

"They can be pretty nice, John."

"I don't know anything about cats."

"There isn't a lot to know.  They are pretty easy."

"I heard they can be mean."

"I don't think this one is."

“Well, we don’t have any litter.”

“I bought some.”

"We don't have a litter box."

"I brought one."

"We would have to leave it alone when we go out."

"She would be okay."

"She might destroy things."

"She is declawed."

"Well...she might not like us."

"She probably won't."

"What??" 

"She probably won't like you."

I had taken him off guard.  This is a good thing to do when one is in battle.

"What??  Why is that?" 

"Cats don't like people, John."

He was slowing down. He wasn't acting as defensive. He was thinking. 

"They don't?" 

"No. They like themselves. It's part of their magic."

"Well, I never heard of that."

"Well, you never had a cat," I smile. 

I stand up and gently pry this thing that is now one with my mother from her lap. 

"Mom, let's let Boo meet John."

The dynamics in the room are palpable. My mother's pleasure, John's nerves and my terror.  In 20 years I had never crossed this man's boundaries, and I just walked into his home with a creature he had forbidden. Now I was going to place the enemy in his arms. 

I turned toward John with Boo filling my arms and could see that he had stiffened.  I can retreat or I can go forward. I've prepped for this battle. I must go forward. 

I took a step toward John and lifted Boo to eye level.  They gazed at each other again. 

"I don't know anything about cats," he repeated. "It probably won't like me," he repeated.

"She is analyzing you right now, John."  

"She is!?"

"Yes," I flatly state.  "She's deciding if you are worthy enough for her to master."

"What? That's not going to happen.  I'm not going to let some cat be my master."

"You will if she decides you will,” and I slip Boo into his arms. 

This cat must have guessed which side her bread was going to be buttered on because she immediately re-melted into John and cranked her purring several decibels up. 

"She's purring," he smiled.

"You must be worthy," I said. 

My boldness surprised me. I had never been so forward with this man. Indeed, I had never tramped so blatantly over someone else's boundaries. At least not since learning about boundaries. When one is raised without them, other people's fences are nonexistent. When one is raised in dysfunction, it's hard to perceive where your own fence lines belong. 

But now I knew. Now I was an adult. Now I had years of jumping over peoples' fences, with intentions both good and bad, years of making amends and starting over, years of no excuses for walking into someone else's door with that which has been forbidden. 

Boo faithfully kept up a powerful rendition of, "You Cannot Live Another Day Without Me" in a rumbling bass, and I could see that John was beginning to slip under her spell.  Boo had just joined the battle.

I finally decided her weight would likely put an abrupt end to her concert and slipped her gently back into my mother's lap amid my mother's purrs and John's ongoing postscripts. 

"Well, she's soft, I'll say that.  She purrs loud, doesn't she? Could you hear her purring? She's shiny," and many other accolades. 

The next thirty minutes brought relative calm to my soul, John distracted with gathering laundry and my mother transfixed with Boo. I don't who know was happier, my mother, the cat, or me. 

Finally, John said he was heading downstairs to start a load of wash, and as soon as he was out the door I knelt again in front of my mother. 

"Mom," I began.

She looked up, delighted. I pushed down a thought that maybe, perhaps she would love me now, that this moment might spark some kind of motherly connection.  "No, Down Hopes! Down!", I silently barked at myself. "Disappointment ahead!"  And true to my gut, my mother's look drifted back to the cat, where all the motherly instincts she possessed would be spent. 

"Mom, this cat is just here on trial, " I began. 

She jerked her attention back to me and said, "What?  Why?!"

"Because I talked her owner into one overnight stay to see if you two were a match. If John insists, I will take her back in the morning. I don't want this cat to come between you."

My mother's reply was meant to be humorous, but she was sincere as she put both hands on Boo and stated with flat conviction, "Over my dead body."

We both laughed. I knew the battle had just become hers.  Hers and Boo's.  

To be continued....

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Forgotten

Suddenly, the room, the people, and everything around him melted away in one quick instant, and he found he was standing outside, in an open field. Blinking, he looked around, wondering how and why he was suddenly standing here. Just moments before, he was – well – what was he doing? For some reason, he couldn’t quite remember where he had been just been, even though he was sure it was only seconds ago that he was there.  The harder he thought about it, the less he remembered.

Almost right away, he noticed that this field was not empty. Scattered around in no particular order, were large, white, words. They stood about chest high, and looked as though someone had dumped a bag full of charades words and had neglected to pick them up.

He started to walk toward one of the nearer piles, and saw that one of the words was “Vacuum.” Right next to it were the words “Sandra Bullock,” “Cardigan,” and “Bruschetta.” Puzzled, he continued to walk around and examine the different piles. Each one had disconnected words, completely out of context, just lying about. He thought that these words seemed to be…what was the word? It was on the tip of his tongue…these words seemed to be…

He tried to think of the word that described what these words seemed like, and as he did, he looked up toward the pale sky. There, right above him, high in the sky, was a small black dot, slowly getting larger. It only took him a few seconds to realize that something was falling out of the sky – and it was falling right toward him. Just as the object became frighteningly large, he dove out of the way and landed hard on the grass just a few feet away. Right where he was standing, there fell with a loud thud, another chest-high white block word.

He stood up and brushed the grass off his pant legs and started to walk around to the front of the object. As he rounded the corner of the word, he saw that it said “Forgotten.”

“Yes!” he shouted. “These words seem to be forgotten by someone! That’s the word I was trying to remember!” It didn’t seem strange to him that the word he was trying to remember fell out of the sky right where he had been standing. For some unknown reason, it seemed like exactly what should have happened, but if anyone asked him why it seemed this way, it is unlikely that he could have said.

Like a flash, he climbed on top of the word that had just landed and tried to survey the entire field. To his left, on the edge of where he could see, he thought he saw a tree line, but it was too far to tell. To his right, he saw an object that seemed to stand out against the hazy distance. He climbed down and started running toward it.

It took a few minutes to make it across the field, but as he got closer to it, he saw that it was a large sign, the bottom of which stood about two feet above his head. He moved around to the front of it and started to read it. This is what it said:

“The thoughtful forgetful forgetting to think
The thought you forgot is beginning to sink
Like lead it will land in this land on the lawn
And remain like a stain on the brain thereupon.”

As he stood there, reading the sign, trying to put the puzzling words together, he heard a voice behind him.

“What are you doing here?!”

The suddenness of the demand made him start and quickly look around. There, standing on the grass in front of him, was a tall, thin man in a three piece suit. The tie was perfectly done, and he stood there as still as a statue, staring at our visitor with wide, unblinking eyes.

“I…I don’t know. I was somewhere…I don’t remember where…and just showed up in this field. Where am I?”

“Oh, not another one.” Was is flat and droll reply. “I can’t believe this happened again.”

With these words, he pulled out a walkie talkie and spoke quickly into the receiver.

“Ed, another one dropped down and he’s here all confused. We’ve got to start another C-2358 before this turns into a full-blown incident.”

“Excuse me, but I still don’t know where I am. How do I get out?”

“Listen pal, if I had to explain this to you, I’d be getting paid a lot more than I’m getting paid, you know what I mean? Did you read the sign? We put that up so I’d have to stop telling people. You people are exhausting.”

“Yes, I read it, but I’m not sure I understand it. It’s a little cryptic, isn’t it?”

“Cryptic?! We went through study after study to make sure we wrote it so you people would understand it. Cryptic.”

At this last mutter, the tall thin man picked up his walkie talkie again and barked into the receiver at the person on the other end. “Hey Mac, how long is this going to take? This quacklacker is staring to get chatty, and I don’t have time to debrief another one. If this goes full incident, you’re going to be doing the explaining, not me, get it?”

There was a muffled reply over the walkie talkie, which seemed inaudible, but the tall man clearly understood it, because he turned red and barked back into the receiver.

“No, I did the last three and you haven’t done any since before…”

More muffled talking over the speaker cut him off mid-sentence. He thought for a minute and then clicked it off and put it back in his pocket.

“Okay, but you better pay attention, because I’m not repeating anything. I don’t have time for this nonsense, and no offence, but you don’t seem like the cleverest one we’ve ever gotten down here, you know?”

“Down where?”

“No questions. Just listening and nodding.”

He nodded his assent.

“You know when you forget a word? You think that word just drifts around forever after you forget it? No. That would be chaos. Could you imagine words just suspended in mid-air forever. That’d be crazy. So, this place is where they all land. You remember your word? Great. You think it just comes back like magic? No way. Words don’t work like that. If they did, I’d be out of a job faster than you could say blackjack. You forget a word, it lands here. The word you might remember later is a totally different word. Not the same one as before. Sure they sound the same, but they’re not. So when you people forget your words, they come down here. They gotta go somewhere Mack, and this is it. It’s not a glamorous job, but it’s a living. My job is to manage all the words so they don’t pile up and get in the way. They gotta be stored neat and nice, see?

He leaned forward and waited for his audience of one to indicate that he was following along. 

Our visitor quickly nodded, hoping that his delay in response wouldn’t derail the story.

“Okay.” He continued. “So every once in a while, something gets crossed in the wires and we get someone like you down here. You all just pop up all confused and it falls to Ed, or more likely, me, to sit you down and explain what’s what. I’ve never figured out why we get you all sometimes, but it’s no picnic and I sure as Duffer ain’t compensated for my trouble.”

Just then, he reached into his pocket and flipped the switch back on.

“Ed, you got that C-2358 ready yet?”

More muffled sounds in response.

“Well it’s about time. Get it going before I come up there and smack you so hard you’ll see straight again.”

Before he finished speaking, everything began to go grainy and pixilated. The field, the tall thin man, the scattered words, all faded away, and he found himself back in the living room of his home, with a cup of coffee in his hand nodding along in conversation with a young woman a few feet away from him. She had just finished saying,

“…so I hope that’s not weird for you.”

Before he realized what he was saying, he found the words coming out of his mouth.

“Honestly, I am really happy for you. It seems like the best move for you, in every respect, so how selfish would it be for me to be upset about it?”

She smiled and breathed out a sigh of relief as she stepped forward to hug him.


“You’ve changed a lot, you know that?” she said as she finished the hug and stood apart again. “It’s like you’ve forgotten yourself and are putting other people first.”

Thursday, February 5, 2015

3rd Annual Writer's March Challenge

Welcome to the third year of The Writer's March! This year is going to be a little different than the past two years, but I think it'll make it more fun and more of a challenge.

For New Writers
If this is your first year being a contributor, I want to welcome you and thank you for your interest. In a nutshell, The Writer's March is an annual writing challenge, where contributors choose how much writing they want to do this month and post on a shared blog for the month of March.

The writers in past years have shown that they are very supportive and eager to help, and there is a wide range of experiences, skill sets, and points of view represented.

If you don't have a Gmail account, you'll need to set one up to be a contributor. They are free and easy to set up - just follow this link to get started. Once you've got a Gmail account, send an email to thewritersmarch@gmail.com asking to be added. I will need to give you permissions to post on the site, so after I add your email address, be sure to follow the links to accept.

For Previous Contributors
Thanks so much for making past years such a success. It's been so exciting to see the things you all have written in the past two years. All of your previous posts are still saved on the site - I have just labeled them with the year they were published, so you'll know what challenge they were a part of.

Your permissions should still be active, but please let me know if you run into any trouble accessing or posting.

New Format This Year
This year is going to be themed - that means that we're going to pick one genre and stick to it for all the posts. The themes will change each year, so if there is a theme you would like to see, let me know.

The 2015 theme is going to be: Short Stories

Challenge Details
Everyone who decides to participate should plan on at least doing the Beginner challenge. For those of you with more appetite, you are welcome to aim for the more difficult challenges.

Each short story should be more than 1,000 words long. There is no maximum length for the stories, but the art of a short story is being able to capture someone from start to finish in a manageable amount of space, so keep that in mind. I think 1,000 is a decent minimum - 350 is about a page, so it equals about three pages.

Challenge: 
Beginner: Write Two Short Fiction Stories any Time in March

Intermediate: Write Three Short Fiction Stories any Time March

Advanced: Write Four Short Fiction Stories - Must be One Per Week

Seasoned Writer: Write Five Short Fiction Stories - At Least One Per Week

Insanity: Write Six or More Short Fiction Stories - At Least One Per Week


Final Details
There is no deadline for signup - but the sooner I hear from you, the sooner I can get  you administrator privileges for the blog. If you have friends who would like to join, just have them send me an email at thewritersmarch@gmail.com and I'll work with them to get their account set up.

Thanks again, and here's to a great March this year!
Stephen